Safe

I'm trying, alright?
I'm trying so hard to get better.
I'm trying.
And I'm pouring my heart out with each letter.

I'm trying.
I'm trying to hide what I am.
I'm trying to believe
That I can.

I'm trying to not embarrass you,
And to be okay.
I'm trying to get by,
Like I have every single day.

I'm trying to suppress
The anxiety and the fear.
I'm trying to put the knife down,
I'm trying to think clear.

Maybe the white-washed walls,
They would be a better place.
The mirror holds a stranger,
It's the only place I'd be safe.